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Falling behind already....I know I know!

It has been a busy week. I have been trying to get Alex into Pre-K this year and it has required an awful lot of jumping through hoops like a circus dog. Finally got her in..well got her on a very short waiting list. Let us hope about 4 people decided to move since they got on the waiting list!!

I just found out today that I did not have to settle for the less than appealing templates for my blog that blogger.com sticks us with. I found the one I am using now, and once I saw it on place my mouth dropped open and I said "Wow".

Is it not beautiful? I will change from time to time I am sure but I am saving all the ones that appeal to me.

It is Friday, and if I am lucky, I will be nomming on something pizza flavored in a couple of hours.

It is a rainy day here in Florida. Lots of thunder, making Alex and the kittens scurry for cover lol.

I still have a project to work on, and that project is cleaning Alex's room. I have been staring at 4 rolls of wallpaper to put in her room for months now and I want to get it done and maybe she will actually want to hang out more in there. Plus the paper is washable...where as the flaking plaster that is on her walls now..is most definitely NOT.

I have a case of the Leaky Cauldron which means for the next 4 to 7 days I will be making lots of plans that involve cleaning, knowing full well I will not even attempt to do these things until about Tuesday lol..

I also need to download about 50 pics off my digi cam and work on those and upload them and send them to their various destinations on my Live Journal and friends email inboxes. Sorry, make that 62 pics..I just looked. Oy vey.

I also spent a lot of time checking out the new stuff on the Yahoo home page, since they tweaked everything. I have to say I like it so far, and joined something called "Mylogblog" ( or maybe it is Mybloglog?), which adds everything I write for the public in one place. I am still learning about it, but it looks interesting. I find myself gathering sites and blogs and writing tools around me to sit on them and keep them warm like a mother hen. More gathering and clucking to be done I am sure...

But first I will have to finish my expectant neck craning to look out of the window in front of me to see if Jack is home with aforementioned pizza flavored noms...I better get back to that, might miss something!

Ta!

Music of the Moment: Flesh for Fantasy by Billy Idol. ( Who, ironically enough, has the flesh some of my fantasies are made of! )

Native Circles

I am going to try not to post a lot of things that are not original, but I got this in an email a couple of days ago, and it really spoke to me.

My ancestors are Cherokee and Creek Indian, and my spiritual path is broadening out to embrace Native American Spirituality. Over the last few months the spiral symbol had been jumping out at me all over the place.

It never really occurred to me why until I started studying about Native American Spirituality more. Then I came across this in my email and it sums it up nicely!


You have noticed that everything an Indian does in a circle,
and that is because the Power of the World always works in circles,
and everything and everything tries to be round.



In the old days all our power came to us from the sacred hoop
of the nation and so long as the hoop was unbroken the people
flourished. The flowering tree was the living center of the hoop,
and the circle of the four quarters nourished it. The east gave peace
and light, the south gave warmth, the west gave rain and the north
with its cold and mighty wind gave strength and endurance. This
knowledge came to us from the outer world with our religion.



Everything the power of the world does is done in a circle.
The sky is round and I have heard that the earth is round like a ball
and so are all the stars. The wind, in its greatest power, whirls.
Birds make their nests in circles, for theirs is the same religion as ours.
The sun comes forth and goes down again in a circle. The moon
does the same and both are round. Even the seasons form a great
circle in their changing and always come back again to where they were.



The life of a man is a circle from childhood to childhood, and so it is
in everything where power moves. Our teepees were round like the
nests of birds, and these were always set in a circle, the nation's hoop,
a nest of many nests, where the Great Spirit meant for us to hatch our children.




Black Elk, Holy Man of the Oglala Sioux 1863-1950



That piece just spoke volumes to me for some reason and I wanted to share. Soon I will be posting about my path a bit and how it is shifting, stay tuned!

What do you do when your hero has more issues than you do?

I have heroes. Most people do. My heroes do not wear capes and fly around fighting crime. Most of my heroes write books. Literary Heroes, if you will.

One of my heroes is a lot like me. She is a couple of months older than me, and has been through a lot of the same things I have been, from life experiences to self image.

I have been fortunate enough to make contact with this person, and can read their personal thoughts. However, what do you do when your hero has way more issues than you ever thought about having? How can a person write a book on self image, and overcoming it, when they have not even come to terms with their own self image? It is confusing.

It does not, however, change my base opinion of her. She is a fantastic writer, hilarious and delightfully sarcastic in the same way I am, and I still greatly admire her. It just put a different spin on things when I learned that the person I looked up to was not quite the person I thought she was. I thought she was down to Earth and "real"...and after knowing what I know now, she is even more "real" to me, because she, just like almost every person in the world, has some sort of issue, some sort of fear, some sort of phobia or inner struggle, just like me. Just like you.

One of the personal definitions of hero for me is: A person who changes your life, for the better. A person who awakens something in you, and changes your whole outlook on things. These kind of heroes are very rare in my opinion, and I have been lucky enough to have been blessed with more than one.

The best part of my literary hero is that she did not allow world recognition to go to her head, and stayed true to herself, even when she is at odds with her self. She did not become fake, or begin to turn into someone she is not, and she readily admits most of her issues, and does not apologize for them. Some would call it "humble" but that is not quite the right word.

So keep in mind, while you are out there daydreaming about being Superman...that he had issues too. It is the never ending process of overcoming those issues to grow as a person is what makes them so awesome...

To Blog, or Not to Blog..

That is the question that has finally been answered. After much deliberation, sleepless nights spent agonizing over this simple little spot on the internet, it is here.

I now officially have a blog.

*Squeeees!*

Now I get to fill it up. That is the part that scares me. As the name implies, this will not be a blog about a specific subject, unless randomness counts as a specific subject.

Life as I see it, hear it, taste it, smell it, and feel it will be here for the world to see...so grab your gear, fill the canteen's, and make sure you bring the flashlight...it gets pretty dark out here sometimes.....