Day 8 : Someone who has made your life hell, or treated you like crap....
The first thing that came to mind when I read this was my exes, and my parents, because they have put me through the wringer at various times in my life.
Upon further reflection however, I know that it was through my own decisions that they were able to get to me. I am the one who ran away from home at 15 and almost got myself killed in a car wreck. If I had been home like I should have been, I never would have been a passenger in that car that day. I am the one who chose my first husband over my family. I am the one who chose to stick it out with him even though he cheated on me from the day we met. I am the one who did not leave right away when the abuse started, because I was to proud to try to go home.
I was the one who chose to remain in fear of my father and not fight harder when they adopted my daughter, and later my son. ( Even though I had no resources to do this with..) I was the one who ran to someone else right away, and got myself in a similar situation. I was the one who still refused to do what I needed to do in order to get my life straight. I was the one who kept making the same stupid mistakes over and over and over again. I was the one who kept choosing the wrong people to align myself with. I was the one who submitted to my weaknesses.
I was the one who had the will to fight to stay alive, but not the will to fight for a quality life. I was the one who decided to withdraw inside myself for so long, instead of facing things head on as I do now.
The person who made my life hell and treated me like crap?
It was me......