Monday, May 23, 2011


I'm angry.

Angry at the promises you never kept.
Angry at the hopes you raised, and then dashed away.
Angry at the double standards you put into our friendship.
Angry at the eggshells I had to walk on.
Angry at the lies you told me.
Angry at the lies you told yourself.
Angry at being ignored for long stretches of time.
Angry that you had time for everyone and everything but me.
Angry that you decided to put on airs. Not that you will admit it.
Angry that I was so unimportant to you that you could just walk away.

Most of all, I am angry at myself, for letting it go on as long as it did, and because sometimes it bothers me still. 

I don't miss who you are.

I miss who you were....


Anonymous said...

Wow Bella good for you getting it out. I am so sorry took advantage of you like that. You are such a better person than that.

Luna Raven said...

Love this! Thoughtful and well put. How dare they indeed, not know the greatness in the gift of friendship.

The Computer Connoisseur said...

I believe I am intimately familiar with who this is about, and I think this was a great way to get out your feelings about your relationship with that person. I love it, and you should do this more often, you are indeed an awesome writer! <3

Tamara said...

This was really good Bella and I can feel your intense anger througout and the hurt and resolve at the end. We should all get our feelings out with pen and paper more often. It feels so good afterwards doesn't it??